I know how you feel. I think to much aswell. its a gift trust me, its what makes me a script writer

 of course you have a meaning on this planet but you are the one who determines that!!!

 sorry you commented on my suckiest entry ever but I put it there to deter the attentions of

 peeps that prolly don't know I am abit of a madrugada romancer/

 pero

 what you say in your journal is evocative of the moral conundrums each of us suffers and

 your desire to search for truth is all you'll ever need to make great value

 trust is something we attain when we are strong and responsible, willing to see clearly, our

 mistakes...(and yes you must never leap blindly into faith and no other can meet our

 expectations infallibly!!!)

 I think you are wise in expressing that there are secrets we need not reveal as  a necessity

 keep writing it as you see it and be real and always respect and protect yourself

(and pop in now and then so I can know full well to read!!!)

  peace out

  in moderation

                and excessssssssss

(I hope this comment was less confusing)

 oops meant I was very impressed!!!

  it has been a spell since I've heard from you and then I check and discover your last entry was on

 your birthday!!! I am sorry to have missed the timely opportunity to wish you the best.

 I hope and pray you are in a high life condition

 I am very expressed with your line:

 'if I keep on I would find the answer somewhere in my brain but

  when that happens my eyes are forced open'

  there is alot wisdom in what you write.

  parents and guardians can be oppressive at times

  keep feeding your heart and soul great respects and evolutionary positives!!!

 nice poem...keep on evolving and you will fulfill your dreams!!!

 if you look through my diary you will find a blurry pic in the entry 'young enough to live for love'

 that is a pic of me and my ex on my bike. we bridged years, language, culture and family to

 be together...proving the impossible becomes possible but the difficulty of life and love seems

 to be, how do we maintain our care and tenderness until our love is consistent with our mutual

 respect. You seem to me like a very open person(from reading your diary)

  I appreciate your comments!!!

 (I do have pics of me and the ex together...but I hesitate to post them due to limited

 image-in-ations of most peeps!!!)

thanks i get my results from the scan today. it must be so hard for you to fel like this wanting to run away but not havin a mate to go with you yet, what about one of the boys u mentioned in one of ur entrys about when u took lsd wusnt they help you out?

ur real parents i dont mean to be nose but do you know why thay gave you up?  they may be willing to ake you back but first find out why they gave you up coz if it was drugs then dont go back  i just dont want u tobe on the streets i really dont like the sound of ur home now infact it sounds like a horribe place to be,. over here in the uk if we are getting beaten by out parents there are social services who help the children and put thm into a better invironment do you have social services over there?

iv read a few of ur entrys and i can understand how you feel

my life growing up was a complete load of shit, never felt lke i belonged anywhere no matter where i was i even tried to end my life at 15 , you shouldnt put up with the beatings your step mum gives you she shouldnt treat you that way o wonder you feel so down. and the lsd thing ur brave to try it lol id be terrified but by what you were saying it sounds pretty cool, iv had some trips myself but not off lsd iv had some bad trips and oh my god are they fucked up lol but they can be good too. where abouts do you live uk or u.s.a? you say u wanna run away isnt there anyone you can go live with?

 hey-yo-you!!! muchas gracias por the comment!!!

 I ain't Latin...Imma just a lover of their peeps....

 keep reading/keep writing

 feel free to drop by anytime!!!

im still gnosis as gnosis is my last name but i had to rid of those diaries. after awhile i seem to bore with the same diary name....

x gnosis x

yeah i do end every entry with it

kind of my thing

though not really because i took it off an internet cartoon

as for dressing like a pirate

my friend was like want to dress like a pirate and i was like yeah that'd be pretty cool

and suprisingly around 7 people did just that

granted i called a loser quite alot

but it was worth it

but it was worth it

ah but if i were to get the F*** out of your house

it would mean we were both outside

hence-o fact-o we would both be outside

and then what are we suppose to say when we're done writing

goodbye

i mean thats just plain

thanks for the comment

it gave me something to think about for a few minutes

and i came up with that answer

...

yes i know im sad

anyway thanks

peace out

(i tried something new)

I tried to read your diary, but, to be honest I can't understand a thing you write.  Nevertheless, I hope you get what you're looking for.

Matt

ahh hate stepmoms!!!!!!!!!!!!

thank god i see her lik once every 5 monthh..yay

witchcraft....hmmm i love seeing it in movies..it feels so real then ahha buh neva tried it cuz not sure if it wud work..id prlly jus look lik an ass lol

latersss

Thanks for the advice.  It was good advice even though your only 14.  Seems like you've collected some wisdom already!

About what you were saying about being a vampire slave.....

I think you should write it all down and make a book.  There are alot of young authors out there getting PAID, and it seems like you have a Wonderful imagination.

xoxoxoxoxo

oh lol i hope it does!!!!!! i searched on google and it said to does so i hope soo

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yeah i know lol

and it makes u go to the bathroom alott i gotta go noww to the bathroom like every 3 min.

its annoying hahaha

i had so far 3 bottles todayy doesint it make u lose some weight?

um to tell u something once when i was 7 there was a bully he called me names and tht i looked like a girl

one day he called a btch my best friend just looked at him and said the btch is right infront of me

GOD NOW THAT I NEVER FORGET FROM THE SHOCK OF HIS FACE LOL
WE BOTH RAN AWAY FROM HIM AND WE LAUGHED AND LAUGHED 

lol so if they call u names just tell them that they are the ones who are infront of you is an example